难道你真的不知道我想要什么吗?

Its never that easy for me to commit myself in a relationship because i know i never have the plan of settling down yet. There was once i told someone 'promise does not means being committed into the relationship', am i wrong? I wish, i hope, i pray that the time will stand still for this moment, just at this point of time so that i can know what i really want )':
In this spur of time, i am in a lost...