I have deleted the previous post,i should not carry out things far too much. I realised i might have alot of grumbles to make but still i do not bear to hurt him verbally. The reason being is because i.... I hate myself for treating him in that way. Though i do always complain to Sissy of how much i hate him for saying me when he should not be but my feelings for him is somehow still there. After much thoughts, i did have my wrong but i refused to admit even when Sissy said what i did is inappropriate too ): Sigh! What's actually wrong with me?