If only..

Sigh! I am utterly disappointed in myself and i guess mum would feel the same way too but she said nothing about it ): She knew that i have done my best so do i ): Still, i cant help it but to feel so down ): I was overwhelmed with excitement while waiting for my turn. Finally,it came.I was shocked,with the results i have got.  Few messages were ignored as i do not see the need to let sone of the people know about it since there's nothing to be proud of either.Months of hard work did not paid off,i started it all too late! I felt so disheartened.. What can i still do? I am in a dilemma whereby i hope to run away from this reality.. )': Future? There's no more for me..

Road ahead of me will be tough and i knew it but i am not prepared for all this ): Not even a little..
I have got no mood for everything.Got to go back for work right now,lunch time is already over.Bye! C: