If only..

How i wish time could go back to the past. To the past when I just met you, to the past when we are still friends to a couple, to the past when you would yearn to spend more time with me. Till now, everything seems to have change. I have come to a point whereby I no longer wish to tell you how I feel anymore. So whats really left for us?

Day and night, we seems to be spending our life in our own way.. Baby, do you realize? Your attention is never on me but your games and friends. Whenever things occur, just one sorry from you, I always forgive you without fail. My anger for you never stay long because I love you so. But have you ever try to understand how i feel instead of waiting for me to let you know. Towards me, you always say I am left with a few days before going to army. Since you know that well, so why are you still dumping me at home everynight since you stopped working. Yes, the only night you are home is only because of that particular reason. If its not then would you still stay at home and keep me accompany by playing with your psp? I wonder.. What I have all along is never your heart but your person. It took you minutes to respond to what I have said or even worse, you were too engrossed in your game to even hear me talking to you. You told me I am always still your priority though you are with your friends but your actions seems to have prove to me in another way round.

Just one call and you are out. Do you even care whether I need you to be with me? Countable words from us everyday but to your friends, countless of topic for hours. You do not even know that I am upset, don't you? Every single time when I wanted ignore you, I think of our baby. Because of our daughter, I put down all of these thoughts. Our marriage still have a long way to go..