Changes..


Countless of matters happened and I'm not sure whether is it over. Having mixed feelings and I feel so helpless. I may be stubborn and does not know how to think. You tried putting yourself in my shoes and did spare a thought for me. However, we are still back to the square one, to the same place, with the same problem existing.. I would always drag my feet when we are going home. I wanted so much for us to have a home of our own, living with only you and our precious daughter. I do not want to be fake anymore, towards anyone and most importantly towards you. Its so tiring having quarrels everyday, giving each other cold shoulders, venting anger. Our relationship have turned sour, I realize. Whenever the topic is being raised up, both of us have different views and in less than two sentences, I'll find us giving each other attitude and we end up not talking to each other for quite sometime. Neither of us feels good, I do not wish to think that the daughter is our burden, our cause of quarrels. Never have I feel so upset when I am with you till now, when the problem arise weeks ago. I still can't let go, it causes me tons of sadness till I'm already numb to it. I'll learn to give and take, I'll learn to think in a better way..

I hope we can go back to the past instead of now.. :'(